In late spring of 1964, I joined my fellow graduates of Miss Sylvia’s Kindergarten on the stage of the Gordon Grammar School lunchroom in Barnesville, Georgia.
At a designated point in the midst of all the pomp and circumstance, I stepped forward and, with trembling knees and shaking voice, recited the first poem I ever uttered publicly. It was “The Swing” by Robert Louis Stevenson.
How
do you like to go up in a swing,
Up in the air so blue?
Oh,
I do think it the pleasantest thing
Ever a child can do!
Stevenson was a pretty good writer. Thinking I could do
better, I eventually wrote some poems of my own. It was when I was a student in
Mrs. Key’s creative writing class at Forsyth Road School. The one I remember
was about space. It was a moving piece with great depth and insight. The
closing line was,
The
biggest space I know of
is
the space between your ears.
I don’t know
which of my classmates I had in mind. If you think it was you, let me know and
I’ll apologize.
I wrote a
few poems over the next half-century, but I’ve only recently begun writing
poetry in a disciplined way. I try to write one every week. Some of them are
about my life, while others are about my perspective on the world and related
matters.
I thought
I’d share two of them to let you know where my thoughts have been lately. The
fact that they don’t rhyme tells you how deep and serious they are.
The first
one is called “Uneven Spaces.” I think it’s about how I want to live.
The
sign in the passageway
between
the terminal and the plane
said,
“Caution: Uneven Spaces.”
It
meant, I think, that the junctures
between
the passageway’s sections
created
a tripping hazard.
It
set me to thinking about how
we
always need to watch our step
because
life isn’t level or uniform.
Some
parts are high, some low.
Some
are wide, some narrow.
Some
are predictable, some surprising.
A
problem: if you spend all your time
looking
down for the uneven spaces,
you’ll
miss seeing lots of amazing things.
Some
things are worth the risk
of
falling flat on your face.
The second
one is called “Hardening.” I think it’s about how I want to grow old.
Three
score and ten seems fair.
But
if you feel pretty good as you get near it,
four
score starts to sound reasonable,
four
score and ten attainable, and
five
score not out of the question.
Then
you think about how
your
minor arthritis might become major,
your
occasional forgetfulness might become frequent,
and
your declining hearing might go all the way down,
and
you tell yourself well, none of that would be so bad.
Minor
inconveniences requiring bearable adjustments.
But
what if you become
more
set in your ways,
more
stuck in your perspectives,
more
callous in your sympathies,
less
open in your search for truth?
And
you find yourself realizing
you’d
rather go sooner with hardened arteries
than
later with hardened attitudes.
You may not
write poetry. But I hope you take time to think deeply about your life in the
world.
We only get to do it once, and we need to find as much meaning in it as we can.
We only get to do it once, and we need to find as much meaning in it as we can.
To read my weekly poems,
follow me on Instagram at michaell.ruffin.
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